I don’t know where to deluge my heart nor I know how make it things right. Its been a long time and we still hold back to those memories which brought us a part. I know you had made up your mind to leave me behind, and even I know I was the reason behind who you are now. But my complaint is little about myself and more about circumstances which made me to a person whom you hate, now I hate him too. It always had been a struggle for me to stay out of sight, where I always wanted to shelter you with all that I have. I know, i carry a demon in me, even I’m scared of it. All I wanted you to dive deep inside, into my darkness and find a light which is still hiding since then. I wanted to walk in those darkest night holding your hand because all that i had was you. Now I’m stuck in a path of “nowhere” lost into the infinity of pain.
“Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can’t escape this now
Unless you show me how”
This is what I feel now, just that you come and hold my hand showing me how to tackle to get back to “Us” which we had before. You know, I remember those days when we were awake almost all nights talking, sharing and caring, being to crazy together, the long smile on the screen you used to send, the sadness you spoke of, making me part of your every happiness. I miss those days and I know the facts that it the cherished memory which I might not get back again. But you need to know something :
I cared for you, may be I still do. Even when you were so busy running away from me, from your own self, I thought I be the anchor for your lost sail. Even when you claimed that you were too broken to love, I thought that maybe my love would be enough to hold us together. But you were too busy aiming for stars, while I was down on the ground trying to make a home out of our ruins. You were always more than enough for me, but the truth is, you never wanted me back when I was lost in the ocean of fate.
Because the past isn’t important than the present
Because he it was busy building a home for them
Because he doesn’t want to loose what they had before